Terrifying Tantrums

This morning before work was the WORST ever morning. I am still feeling completely incompetent and emotionally wrecked. Poppy woke at 620am, late for her as you'll know if you read this regularly, so I decided to get her up and give her a bottle downstairs rather than putting her back to bed after it. I don't know if this was the reason, if she was hungry after her milk, or just being a total cow, but from then on she tantrum-ed for 2 hours until we left the house. And I mean this new, extreme, eye-wateringly loud kind of tantrum she's developed. All I was trying to do was have a wash in the bathroom so I put her down on the floor, like I do each morning; today it resulted in a spectacular display of anger and frustration, seen as her throwing herself onto her front and screaming at the top of her lungs, arms and legs going rigid and throwing her head back. Poor hubby was trying to sleep before going into an afternoon shift, but could only withstand his natural curiosity for so long before coming to see just what the fuck what going on.

And that was just one of the many she had in that 2 hour period. I went into work feeling the worst I've felt for a good while, that pressurised & trapped feeling back in my very core. Wondering how I ended up with such a horrible child. If she will ever stop this melodramatic behaviour. Maybe she's just not very nice and will always be like this. I don't want to dislike my offspring, it goes against the natural order of things. Even a colleague asking if I was ok, I wasn't my normal self today, brought me close to tears as it meant that the facade I was usually pretty good at maintaining when I feel crap was too much to keep up.

There's only one solution to this dreadful day. A glass of cold white wine.

Spring is sprung & madness has set in

The weather has been really warm here today, so much so that i even dressed in cutoffs and a sleeveless top! Mad eh? Poppy and I had a half hour outside playing too before lunch, after a 2 hours nap for us both after that very early start. However due to that long nap she then wouldn't nap this afternoon, it ended up us walking the dogs with her in the pram before dinner just to get in a half hour of peace.
THEN at bedtime, after a very bad dinnertime during which she only ate a slice of turkey, she was so hungry she downed her bottle but still wouldn't sleep for over an hour! AARRGGHH!! She's having the terrible two's at one, i swear. She has tantrums over everything - nappies, getting dressed, getting undressed, eating, wanting to be picked up, wanting to be put down...She almost smacked her head on the side of the wooden bedstead earlier as she chucks her head back when she's having a tantrum, it's only cos I caught her about a millimeter before she made contact she didn't hurt herself.

When oh when will everything not be a battle??